Sometimes, we need to remind ourselves that it's ok to play - that it's ok if everything isn't a masterpiece, and that sometimes (perhaps most times), it's more about the process than the end result.
When I'm old & grey, I may find myself a different person than the one I thought I would become - but does that really matter, in the end? Isn't it more about the connections I made along the way - the lessons I learned, the freedom I felt to be who I wanted to be at the time? Change is inevitable, and the fact that I am one way today, doesn't mean I will be this way tomorrow.
Be kind to yourself & give yourself permission. :o)