Tuesday, February 24, 2015

rough day = rough art

The real voyage of discovery 
consists not in seeking new landscapes,
but in having new eyes.
- Marcel Proust
It is so true that we paint what we feel
and not necessarily what we see.
Day 23 (yesterday) was an ok day.
Nothing extraordinary, but sometimes,
having an ok day is good enough for me.
Day 24, however... not so good.
Long story short: work was hell.
One of those days where I see
all the injustices
and the greed.
If there is one thing in life
that grinds my fucking gears -
it's greed.
And this place bleeds greed.
I'm sure you've all had those days.
I came home tonight
not knowing whether i wanted a warm bath
or chocolate
or a punching bag
or my journal
or pizza
or a walk outside
or just to flop myself in front of the tv
and not move until bedtime.
Slowly, i had a decent meal,
watched a bit of tv,
then put on some zen music,
lit a candle,
and painted today's self portrait.
Right after i post this,
i'm going to write a bit in my journal.
Just thinking about that makes me feel better.
I am so behind on visiting all your blogs
and although I'd love to see your lovely art tonight,
i will wait until I feel a little more rested.
A little less frustrated.
A little more grateful
and a little more like myself.
Big bear hugs to all of you.


  1. You have conveyed your emotions for both days very well! I hope you can regroup and start fresh tomorrow! I like how you are trying different ways to do self-portraits.

    My hectic month has prevented me from doing the faces challenge. I miss doing it. I guess I will have to do it on my own once things settle down.

  2. A big hug back to you Pauline:) Greed has always been and always will be part of the human fabric. Funny, how a lion never kills more than he needs to survive but human greed knows no bounds. Getting rattled by it is a sign of a decent heart, I think. It's good to see how you channel that angst and create art and write. Keep it up!

  3. You are so honest , so right , so smart, I love to read your posts and as for your self portraits, I love
    # 20 I am soo lucky to have you as a friend

  4. I've been loving seeing your beautiful face, but am sorry to see it so sad here. I'm glad you were able to take good care of yourself and know that this too is temporary (just like that stinkin' job!). Hugs to you.