and failed to do so, you are probably lucky.
You may be an exile of some sort,
but you have sheltered your soul.
- Dr. Estes
I heard a comment from someone the other day
that reminded me that there are still far too many people
who see the artist as a fuzzy kind of
they still don't know what they wanna do
with their lives and they're too lazy
to do anything else
kind of profession.
Many years ago, the father of a friend
asked me what i did for a living.
When i replied that I was an artist,
his response was, with the flip of a hand:
"oh, well then you must be poor."
and he walked away.
And he said it with a straight, serious face.
He was far too important
to waste his time with an artist.
He was a business man with money.
I was just an artist.
(today, I'd tell him to fuck off.
But back then, I was less confident)
I went away feeling torn
with the thoughts in my head
flying around like annoying mosquitos.
Maybe he's right.
I'll never have money.
Maybe i should do something else.
This is too hard.
I should pick something more stable.
Thankfully, I stayed on my path.
I surrounded myself
with people who encouraged me,
and kept voices like his
as far away from me as possible.
No it wasn't always easy,
no, I didn't make a lot of money,
but like most things that aren't easy,
life in the arts is so worth it.
(especially when that's who you are!)
It took me years to develop
the confidence i needed
to be able to stand in my own light
and to be proud to say:
Without feeling any less
or important than anyone else.
It took me years
what my work was worth.
Not in terms of money,
but in terms of meaning,
for me and others,
Yes. The world.
That's how big I see things now
because i believe in the ripple effect.
I believe that if ONE person is inspired
by someone or something,
if ONE person sees something
that makes them happy,
then they in turn will inspire others.
At the very least, they will be happier themselves
for a moment in time,
and if they are happier for a moment,
chances are, they will spread their joy
and make someone else happy too.
I'm not convinced that money can do this.
(there are a lot of lonely rich people in the world).
I did this quick painting outline
a few nights ago,
and as soon as i did the 3 "plants",
i decided to scrap it
(by putting a black line through it!)
Once the black line was there,
I looked at it and decided
to add more black lines through it...
connecting the lines here and there
At this point, it made sense to add some color...
and a few more colors...
and more still.
The lighting is bad here,
but as you can see -
i think it's been revived!
I'm not sure i'm done with it..
i'll post an update if i do anything else to it.
And this quick sketch of me & my thoughts...
i made myself prettier.
And thinner ;)
who wants to be an artist
or an actor
or a writer
or a dancer
or a poet
or a musician...
especially if they're young & just starting out,
to stay with it!
Society doesn't make it easy for them.
The world doesn't make it easy for them.
Tell them to keep going.
Tell them it takes a lot of guts
to do what they're doing.
Tell them they'll need to get comfortable
With not always being rewarded financially.
With questions and assumptions
and judgement from others.
But tell them to KEEP GOING ANYWAY.
The world needs them now
more than ever.