sharing me...

Some things about me that you may not know...

I am afraid sometimes -

of failure

of success

of not being good enough

of not being enough

of not wanting enough

of settling

of not living fully.

I sometimes lack faith in myself

in others

in the universe

in the natural flow of things.

I savor the little things in life

like my toes in the sand,

the way coffee tastes first thing in the morning,

the sun on my face,

the way the breeze blows in my window at night,

the birds in the distance,

the smell of grass after rain

the way the clouds glide across the sky,

or paint glides across the canvas.

But there is rarely a day

where I don’t also savor

the disappointments

the doubts

the dashed hopes

and neglected dreams.

I take it all in

because to deny one or the other

would only take me further away

from my truth.

There is a balance

between bliss and sadness

and this is where my heart resides,

never totally in one or the other.

I think about death sometimes

and why so many of us

are more concerned about the afterlife

than this one life we have right here, right now.

I think about suffering

and sacrifice

and why so many hearts

still feel unloved.

Sometimes, I am afraid

of my own voice

and what it wants to say.

What it says about me.

I am afraid of how I may be judged

if I let it speak its truth.

And then I remind myself

of the importance of expression

of shared stories

shared ideas

shared love…

I love old photographs

and quiet walks in the woods

and the ocean

and solitude.

I hate intolerance

and gossip

and abuse of any kind.

I hate that so many on this planet

still lack clean water

and still starve to death.

I hate that our laptops

get more attention

than our loved ones.

It makes me sad

that so many of us

have lost the ability

to believe in ourselves,

in our own strength,

in our own path,

and we look to others

to tell us how to live our own truths,

when all we really need

is within.

I love that I share this space

with kind beings

with giving hearts

and selfless souls

who dedicate their lives to spreading hope,

and creating change

and making this world a better place

one person at a time,

one little thing at a time.

The secret of life

is all in the little things.