Thursday, August 16, 2012

how to ease your heart and make you ok with the world again

We learn resignation not by our own suffering,
but by the suffering of others.
W. Somerset Maugham


Mom ended up in the hospital again these past days,
hence my absence.

I love making art and posting something here
at least every other day,
but sometimes, life happens,
and it's just not as important.


It's never easy to watch a loved one suffer,
and yet, such is life.


Good days and bad...


and when the heart is too unsettled to even think of making art,

i write.

i watch a movie.

I go for a walk near the ocean

and throw questions to the wind

without expecting any answers.



And when my heart is ready again,

i paint.

I draw.

I write some more.

I put my emotions to paper (or canvas)

and with each brush stroke,

or pen line...

the burden is lifted, little by little,

and although i still feel sad,

i feel more grounded and whole again.

It is my therapy.

Art does for me what religion does for others.

Sometimes, you just need to sit with the uncertainty.



(a quick sketch from the hospital...)

Wishing you all a wonderful Thursday.

I look forward to visiting many of your blogs
in the next few days.

Oh, and the good news?!

There is a cool front coming in
and the weather should be less humid and hot
for the next few days/weeks!!

HOOO-AH!!
;-)

20 comments:

  1. Beautiful words...and ones that I can relate to. I was at the hospital with my mom for the last 5 weeks of her life. Looking back, it was a beautiful time between us.

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  2. Love and miracles to you and your mum. And yay for the self nurturing activities; finding ways to be happy when you are also sad is not easy sometimes, or maybe ever. xx

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  3. Take care, Pauline! Hope all goes well for you soon. I've been having quite a stressful few weeks as well, but doing art daily (even for a few minutes) has helped. :-) Oh yes, and movies too. Hehe. I like how you've created the dimensions of the tree!
    xx

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  4. Gentle (hugs) are sent your way.
    Stay inspired!

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  5. So sorry about your mom. You have a wonderful way of dealing with it all. I have spend many hours looking at hospital chairs, myself, over the years. I do love this tree!!!

    Life isn't always easy, but it's always worth it. *love and hugs*

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  6. Gorgeous tree..full of healing and magic..wonderful expressive energies and patterns on the bark..beautiful! and hope your mom is better soon!
    Thanks for sharing your journey and inspiring words!
    HUgs
    Victoria

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  7. BEAUTIFUL! ~xx
    Yes, I do agree... life happens, which it makes it hard to create something artful or to write a post.
    We need our space sometimes and when the healing begins... the paint is there for us. ~xx
    Sending healing prayers your way, wishing your mom well.

    p.s. the artwork speaks well for this post. I always think of a tree trunk as a symbol of being faithful, strong, and reliable; like are talents & artwork!! :]

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  8. BEAUTIFUL! ~xx
    Yes, I do agree... life happens, which it makes it hard to create something artful or to write a post.
    We need our space sometimes and when the healing begins... the paint is there for us. ~xx
    Sending healing prayers your way, wishing your mom well.

    p.s. the artwork speaks well for this post. I always think of a tree trunk as a symbol of being faithful, strong, and reliable; like are talents & artwork!! :]

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  9. lovely Pauline, I am sending warm hugs your way and i hope u and ur mom feel better much sooner than you think....i loved the tree, the magical tree. My wishes will stay close by you and your post as always does touch deep chords - sunayana

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  10. Sorry to her about your mom. Hope she'll feel better soon. Love to see the progression of your tree.

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  11. Sending you love and hugs, my friend. xoxo

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  12. A beautiful post, Pauline. Sorry to hear about your Mom. I remember all those hospital visits with our mom, and the emotions that went along with them. Just seeing your little sketch from the hospital brought it all back, but so did your humor. That's the only way to make it through. Big hugs to you - and keep laughing! xoxox

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  13. Hi Pauline, thanks for your kind comment!!
    now I'm just cold and unfortunately I have a lot of work late to do.
    so I have little time to see the blogs of my friends
    but I wanted to be polite and thank you for your kind comment
    I want you to have a beautiful weekend!
    :))))))))))))

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  14. Cool. It's always interesting to see another artist's process. Happy Creating.

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  15. So sorry to hear your mother is unwell but it is comforting to have an outlet for those emotions! We miss you when you don't post but totally understand when life isn't cooperating!

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  16. Thank you for sharing your survival techniques. Hope you allow yourself much rest and know you're in thoughts of people who care even if we're strangers <3

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  17. I'm sorry your mom hasn't been well--hospitals can be a difficult place. I spent ten days sitting with my dad in the hospital after his strokebefore he passed away this past December. It was a hard time.

    I do think art brings a special kind of peace and joy to our lives-

    Your tree is beautiful, and I love seeing it develop!

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  18. What a amazing magical tree! Thanks for the progress photos. I'm sorry about your mom. Hope she'll feel better soon.
    Its very well that art helps you to get new power!
    Warm greetings Anja

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  19. This is a very powerful post. Your words along with the development of your tree just went right to my heart. Sending healing thoughts to your family.

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  20. Pauline, art heals,it definitely does for me! And, when my mom was hospitalized, cancer overriding her fierce spirit, she told e, 'paint more, write more'...like she knew it would be my survival kit.
    Love the tree and your writing!

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