to make a long story short. Or long. :)

You need to spend time

crawling alone through shadows

to truly appreciate what it is

to stand in the sun.

- shaun hick

hello friends!
I was thinking the other day
about why I paint what I paint.

I've been painting or sketching
about things that don't sit well with me
for years now.

Basically, I've been painting
about life.

You all know by now,
that I don't just paint pretty pictures.
If you love painting pretty pictures,
good for you! 
Carry on.

I like painting pretty pictures too
but I also like painting sad, angry ones,
if that's how I'm feeling at the time.

I am inspired by anything & everything,
but more often than not,
I am inspired by what is happening
in the world,
and how I feel about it.

This painting/collage was done in about an hour
and it happened a day or two after
the recent bombings in London.

I kept thinking of the song
we used to sing as children:

London bridge is falling down,
falling down,
falling down...

And after a day or so,
I picked up the paint brush.

When something happens

in one corner of the world

we are all affected, one way or another.

Some of us (the sensitive ones) are perhaps

more affected than others.

So we do what we have to do

to help us deal with the craziness

and to make sense of our lives again.

Some people turn to God or religion or faith.
Some people turn to drinking or drugs.
Some people shut down from the world.
And others (like me) turn to things like
writing
and art
and music
and reading
and meditation
and poetry.
We turn to something
that allows us to express our worries,
fears and questions.

I've been painting about things
that I don't understand
for a long time now,
and somehow,

it has helped me better accept things.

It doesn't mean I understand them,
but the accepting seems to come easier.
I painted this one (above) 
right after mom found out she had
ovarian cancer.

I painted this one
right after the devastating earthquake
in Haiti, in 2010.

I painted this from a photo I saw
on the newspaper,
because it tugged at my heartstrings.
A WW2 veteran at the tombstone of a friend
who died in battle.

This was done years ago,

the day after one of my son's friends

was killed in a car accident.

The car caught fire

and they couldn't get him out.

I couldn't imagine the pain

in his mother's heart.

This little sketch was done a year or so

after mom died.

Little snippets of a life.

I've also painted (and still paint)

fun, happy things too - 

when the mood is right.


This little bird on acid. ;)

his cousin the cow. 

You know when people say:

"...to make a long story short"

and by the time they say that,

it's already a damn LONG story?!?

Well, this kinda feels like that.

My own long story.

I'm sure some of you out there are wondering
about the point of this long blog post.

The moral of the story is:

Do whatever YOU need to do

to make sense of your world.

If it makes you happy to paint flowers,

then paint flowers!

If it makes you happy to PLANT flowers,

then plant flowers!

Life is short.

Do what you love as often as you can,

'cause before you know it,

you'll be old & gray.

And bitter if you didn't do

what makes your heart happy

once in a while.

When I first started painting (in my mid teens),

I practiced A LOT with wall calendars.

I'd find a photo of a beautiful landscape,

and practice my technique to make the painting

look as close to the photo as possible.

I got good eventually and everyone would OOOOO and AAAAAH

and it worked for a while,

but then it just wasn't cutting it for me.

I wasn't proud of what I had done,

because I had basically just copied and

because with practice,

ANYONE can make a painting

that looks like a photograph.

(yes, you can).  :)

But not "anyone" can see the world

through my eyes.

Only I can do that.

Just like only YOU can see the world YOUR way

and only you can show the world what you see!

Art to me was about expressing

what I felt inside.

It was about the pleasure of painting or sketching.

It was about giving a specific

moment in my life meaning.

It was about keeping a visual record

of something that happened

or someone I loved.

It was about helping me remember

certain moments in my life.

And of course, it was a 

reflection on what was happening

in the world and

in my life at the time.

I'm not sure this makes sense to anyone,

but there you have it.

My long, short story. 

:)

Happy weekend everyone!

xo