jumping without a parachute, but with wings

Hello everyone!

I have so much to share

that it almost feels overwhelming to even begin...

but here goes.

I just finished a fabulous 6 weeks
of Sketchbook Skool, 
an on-line klass filled with assignments from 6 incredible artists
and one of the most supportive communities ever.
So many good hearts out there.

For the past 6 months or so,
i've spent my time working at an office job.
My contract ended last week,
and since that time,
i've been slowly replenishing myself
with things that are closest to my heart again,
things that feel like ME...
like art
and writing
and reading
and connecting with the art community again,
with people like you,
who get where i'm coming from.

I have felt so lost and disconnected and fake
during the past 6 months in an office job,
that it has made me rethink everything about my life.
Why I keep taking on work that has no value for me...
why i keep calling myself a graphic designer,
when I no longer have the passion to pursue this profession...
why i still lack trust in spreading my own wings,
trust in my own words,
trust that everything will be ok.

I love this quote by Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche:
The bad news is you're falling through the air,
nothing to hang on to, no parachute.
The good news is there's no ground.

 This is how I am feeling lately...
like I am ready to jump without the parachute
and trust that my wings will take me where i need to go.

I've watched others do it,
and have felt envious.
I've read about those
who have changed their lives
in a way that allows them to live closer to their dreams,
and wished i could find the courage to do the same.

 ...and yet, i feel closer than ever before.
Thanks to beautiful souls like Susannah,
gently reminding me that you need not be 
a super hero nor a super god
to live a life that feels like YOURS.

thank you Susannah, 
for a book filled with so much beauty & meaning.

so for now,
my days are filled with writing and sketching...

and sketching...

and reading wonderful books...

and surrounding myself with beautiful inspiration...

and reminding myself that there are others out there
who have gone where i want to go,
and who have felt the same fear and doubt as I feel -
but went anyway
and oh, 
what a sad world it would be
if they hadn't dared to trust and jump.

thanks for being here with me.
xx